Anger
Sunday, March 19, 2006
♥ Sunday, March 19, 2006
What is anger? Is it dis-satisfication? Is it unhappiness? Why do we get angry? A mere influx of neurotic fluids into a certain cerebral hemisphere? Emotions? Is that the same? How do one tell the difference? What
is the difference between anger and sadness, anger and joy, anger and happiness, anger and humour, anger and disappointment? Do one
obtain anger just like one
obtains happiness (if they even do). I am angry. How do i make such a claim? A kinda 'negative flutter' of the heart? Like the opposite of love or happiness or joy? Do we function in such a manner? In the realm of
neutrality? Where everything is a neutral state, because there is a negative to every positive and vice versa. There are anti- electrons and anti-protons for crying out loud! Are there anti-emotions? In the vast universe of possibilities, is anger the negative then or the positive- the deviation of a curve that bounces up or down, makes a trough or a crest?
Descarte taught someone who taught that someone who taught another someone...who ended up teaching my brother, one of this: the infinite regress of doubt. Simply put it, definitions shant and cant exist because in the eyes of a purist, no definition do justice to what a word or words mean. Meaning isnt contained in mere comprehension. And comprehension is a fraction of what things really are. I have an sms in my phone. Its a quote by a french philosopher, " nothing is real that is not eternal". Reality and eternity seems to be binded and only the timeless comprehend all. "To see the world in a grain of sand, and heaven in a wild flower; hold infinity in the palm of your hand and eternity in an hour." Yes, that has a connotation that is absolutely of a divine nature. And anger? Its in one of the 7 deadly sins is it not? Lust, envy, anger, gluttony, greed, sloth..& cant remmeber the last one. I think its pride.
Point of relevance? If the souls' longing of eternity, eternal splendour, eternal serenity is shattered by sins, by Adam's fall, by Eve's betrayal, by the serpent's temptation; If man is banished out of the Garden of Paradise by Sin, and brought into the world of mortality, then sin is the negative of that eternity! Anger, is then, the displacement of a soul's search for eternity. Is that too un-imaginable? I dont believe so. Think about it? When im angry, what happens? There's damage isnt there? The blame, the guilt, the hurt, the sorrows..a vicious cycle that seeminly propagates on mere thoughts.. think about it! After the sorrows..comes the revenge? the anger? Because of blame?? Time stands still when one puts himself in the understanding of Man's greatest gift and curse- choice. Sounds like the Matrix. The Wachowski brothers have an uncanny ability to influence.
This weekend, i was angry. I drowned in that vacuum of anger. More importantly, i chose to be. This blog actually analyzed that for me. Like a mirror, i see my own thoughts, and i see that i no longer am. A wonderful quote from V for Vendetta, " people die, get forgotten... but an idea stays forever." So i died, in that anger and was forgotten. I am given another shot at living, via confession, and i live- an attempt to allow anger to be
solely an idea.
