Connect.
Monday, July 10, 2006
♥ Monday, July 10, 2006
Connection. You know how sometimes you can just not talk with people, and yet know that there is something in between the two of you, that makes you two happy and comfortable with each other? Its connection.
Connection is what people try to establish with other people. Language. To form a consensus on what we want to convey, we have to find a meeting point- a connection. (im trying as hard as i can not to be cheem here!) There was once a saying that love is a form of language. hmm..if we break it down to how language works as a form of connection between people, for the purpose of conveying or consensualising, we just might understand a little bit more about love.
A part of friendship, a part of family, a part of what people share between people, Love actually is one huge binding connection. Remember my entry on friendship? I din do a real gd job of elaborating the part about beauty. Where we feel loved, where we understand and yet need not go to the extent of defining, but 'feeling', where we deep in ourselves experience a certain 'knowing', thats the beauty i am talking about, thats the beauty MOST expressed, and thats the the beauty that love makes us to be. See, deep inside us, we are a mystery. But, but, if through other's eyes we get to see our own existence, and if through our own, we get to see another glimpse of ourselves, we might be able to piece together the jigsaw puzzles of who we really are, deep, deep inside. And my conviction that understanding how we connect to each other, as ourselves, can help us do that!
Actually, connections might not be so abstract after all. Its the sending and the receiving. We send the right message, the other receives and interpretes it the way it should, wala! we have a connection! Relationships are found on that premise. Relationships happen when one person decides with another, that their lives are to overlap each other, that in their personal history annals, there is gonna be a section that includes each other. The person thus becomes aware that he is now both a sender and a recipient of a very special message called friendship! And there is more. Friendship also serves as a form of connection from the self to the soul. When one remarks, ' i feel so loved! I have a friend!' (or something to that effect), one has found something true to rejoice in, no? And whats rejoicing but the leap of the soul, emerging from the depths of our hearts to the smiles on our face! See...Connection!
more implications to this idea of connections, actually. Question and Answer. Read in Yann Martel's debut book about this. That we have to make the right connections to questions and answers. For example, a women whose child have died of leukaemia might ask the question why did he die?
1) Because his disease had disabled his body's immune system.
2) Because this was meant to be.
Now before we choose to connect the answer, we must asses the message sent. 'Why did he die?' could be a question that demands a medical explanation. But we all know that that is highly unlikely. More likely would be ' why do i have to suffer this loss?' And there, making the connection to (2) would deem most appropriate. And its important to know this, for this is what being sensitive means.
And, its important to be sensitive. Just like its important to be sincere, and kind, and joyful, and loving etc etc etc. Why? Because we have a connection to make too. The connection of ourselves to a certain ideal: the authentic human being. I love this term. It means there is a mask we put on, there is a mask to take off, there is a person inside, that feels warm and real: the true self, the free self, the authentic self. How we make this connection? Donald Walsh suggested this. Look at yourself through a mirror, into your eyes, & you'll get to experience a deep inner 'thing'. As they said, the eyes are the windows to the soul, Donald Walsh took a step further, and took it
literally! But it kinda makes sense. Its in a mirror we notice ourselves, that we have a beauty to behold, we have a connection to make to the outside cold harsh and mean world, to warm and colour and beautify it.
This connection is also evident in every church camp, as facilitators, we actually are more concerned about this connection than we know. The message sent is simple: Jesus loves you. The delivery is the challenge; to connect a person and this message, to mediate an understanding and to facilitate a relationship. Wow, we as facils, have become a connection! How meaningful. And i have just had a startling revelation. If the cross was that connection between man and salvation, earth and heaven, and then we (as mentioned earlier) are to be that connection between ppl ard us and salvation, our identity lies very very much in the cross! The cross as a source of hope, the cross as our suffering, the cross as a sign of resurrection and the cross that bears the story of a crucified Christ. If we can actually realise our place in this world has so much to do with the history of this world (of 2000 years and way back with salvation being the theme), and that the history of this world is so that we love our place in this world( being instruments for God's greater glory), we can then begin loving, and sharing this world together.
11th of july 06. I have made a quiet connection. Between me and God. Between me and da jie. Between da jie and God. We'll see how that goes. But i chose to start it where i was feeling the most lukewarm about life. Because i know that my conviction will no longer lie on emotional highs, or some epiphany.
And i got a message to send. To you. You who think you arent interesting. There is something i've gotta say. There are probably connections you've got to make as well! heh connect to this: There are tonnes of things abt you tt are pretty damn interesting actually, if only you noticed. But since we sorta share some 'sensitive' history, if i go into detail, u might misinterpret it and shucks, our friendship gotta start from sorry scratch again. But to put it in a nutshell, you're a pretty colourful person. From the time i started knowing ya to now, it's seem to leave me with an impact tt can only be described as 'colourful'. And its enjoyable knowing ya. So, if ur wondering why a million ppl are talkin to ya (as on tt day on msn?), the 'colour' you bring to people could just be it.
So, we might come to realise, connections play a greater role than we know. And thats why it makes me pretty upset too when i hear that i am cheem. cuz it means that there is a broken connection somewhere, in between the message i wanna send, and the message you received.
