Wednesday, October 18, 2006
♥ Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Had a chat with Alvin yest. Its nice talking to ya bro, as i mentioned in the sms, albeit being at like 1230 in the night!! haha.
And also, its very nice having a point of release, of all pent up thoughts.
Shall we talk abt community? I do not know.
What i can talk about, however, is God.
I recall the chat yesterday, and then in a certain reflective manner, i begin realising that we are all in the same boat.
How so? We ask and ask and ask. Its out innate nature to discover and question. In fact, if i could add, its only human to reach for the mysteries that baffle our common senses. Yet, i ask perhaps 1 too many sometimes. It wasnt right to ask Alvin whether there was an important function to his call. It was only right to give him that trust.
Another of which baffles us is really, relationships. Alright, as promised, i will be truthful.
It seemed to me, as if community and friendships are intertwined. Now, of course this is perhaps only natural, being that our commitment forges bonds, with each session that we dutifully turn up for. But, is the converse true? That whilst we fail to commit, in our own humanistic desire of mediocrity, does our relationships get threatened?
Should relationships break down, on our own refusal to commit as enthusiastically as the rest, then the key question is this. What have this relationship be based on? It seems that should a scenario where a friendship disintegrates as a result of a departure from community happen, it only reflects the kind of genuineness that began the friendship! Or lack thereof, rather.
Its interesting reading my own thoughts. The more i reject my personal feelings for the comm, the more the thoughts seem to propagate. I wonder why.
So, where is God? I will show you where He is.
2 citations of roughly the same kind of language shut me up, for all the cynicism i had.
1st was Marie's msg of' serving the community outta love and service'
2ndly was Alvin's Love thy God and thy neighbour.
It seems that the drill of my wall seemed to be none other than the notion of love.
It is wrong to ask whether we have been loving..because love is a present, active verb. Perhaps, our acid test, our exam-to-end-all-exams of our lives and our relationships and our community, is against Love. For conformed to love, if we are not; condemnation, we then be subjected to.
I believe there are many, many out there looking and in the light of certain events, it is even more evident that many, many have been crying. Most importantly, a cry left alone, is a cry muted, a cry forgotten. And in forgetting, in leaving alone, in muting, we have forgotten who these cries belong to- Jesus. We never really saw it that way, have we? As cries belonging to that of a persecuted, crucified and crying Jesus, as a Jesus who shouted to the heavens that echoes in all depths of human persecution and injustice,' Eli Eli, Lama Sabachtani!'
So, yes, its right, to say that when we havent had the love for what we flippantly call 'brothers' or 'sisters', we havent kept close to Christ in his cry, and we ask the most important question of all...if we're not Christocentric, what pagan gods of pleasure, secularism and flamboyance have we been worshipping?
Well, on a lighter note, a heart of service and sacrifice changes and lightens. A heart to minister and to share breaks isolation and perhaps cynicism. 'the day will come when all the desires of our hearts will be brought into the light...and then EVERYONE WILL RECEIVE PRAISE.'
