Sunday, October 15, 2006
♥ Sunday, October 15, 2006
Went to this prayer prep session at minor sem, for upcoming wk's cjc camp.
Had this praying over session, that i thought was very prophetic-how the stuff i din mention to the praying team, was suddenly sensed by one of them. It kinda threw me offguard..though of course, i wanted to keep my cool
I couldnt keep it when Janice asked me 'whats your biggest struggle'. Somehow i am a terrible, terrible liar, and i just told her generally what really was bugging me, and yes, like Jericho, the walls became tumbling down. So praise God for janice.. though it lasted for say 10 mins, its been sooo long since i really had a heart to heart chat.
Just re-watched Passion Of Christ. There's a certain conviction that have yet become a part of me.. how do you live life knowing you're loved? More importantly, i have to put the upcoming camp first. I can deal with myself later. So question is, how do you bring a conviction, so necessary to a people?
A certain event took place on Tues. My bro went for his 1st ever participation in his karaoke competition. Although the results were slightly disappointing, I nevertheless saw a facet of life from another lens. The lens of pride.
I think for the first time, i was consciously aware of how proud i was, for my brother to be performing. I have attended many of his performances, but somehow this one, when he stood alone, amidst a bunch of strangers and the intimidating glare of the judges, and sang the song ' Candle in the Wind', did something really joyful stir in me. This was my brother, performing.
This is my brother who has broken the family norm of stagefright, and who is saying that 'ITS ENTIRELY POSSIBLE!' And like Marianne Williamson's phrase ' while we allow our light to shine, we unconsciously allow others to shine their light..' Yes, its to be a possibility, thats so awe inspiring..especially in my pursuit of that one thing.
