We are where we place ourselves

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

♥ Tuesday, October 16, 2007

my OBSERVATION

Mass Media: practically non existent. The lack of leadership or the refusal to take up leadership begs certain questions. An inferiority for such a daunting task? A refusal of ownership in the community? Or a simple case of far too many commitments? But then again, dwelling deeper, those people who have taken up the role of leadership have truckloads of work, so i am guessing that there has got to be a deeper reason. Perhaps the lack of enthusiasm of the community itself. I dont know. But observe hard enough- you'll figure it out.

Teaching Ministry: 'we're peope who think, not people who pray'. That kinda sums it up doesnt it? And yet i think we have done a pretty damn good job considering our arid and insipid spirituality, and personally its interesting how people who are in it, are all somewhat gifted in this aspect of teaching...in my humble opinion of course. Regardless, the teaching ministry has been forward looking and optimistic about things to come. Thats an enthusiasm yet seen by many others.

Music Ministry: I will give credit where credit is due. Sadly, credit is due to a select few. If its a reflection of the leadership, perhaps that is what should be worked on. But they have forked out time and effort in leading worship every week. And for that, i think they do deserve the proverbial pat on the back.

Special Projects: In my mind, this ministry feels like a subsidiary. Not exactly the essence of the community, but definitely not redundant either. This ministry feels more like a close knitted cell group, having more social and prayerful activities than any other ministry, if i am allowed to say that. And perhaps that is in itself is a good enough raison de'tre. I wouldnt know. Nevertheless, i have faith in the leadership.

Core Team: the one subjected to the most scrutiny and sometimes well, the most persecution. To tell the truth, i am so inclined to lash out against the individuals, but then again, its at the Team that i am evaluating. And personally, they give the perfect ying to our yang- the spiritual balance and discernment the community needs. I think this is a dedicated group striving to work for the betterment for the community- hello ,they went for a retreat specifically for this purpose. When was the last time anyone did that? And there are a good mix of idealists and dreamers, of realists, of pragmatists and architects.

So all in all, if you want to consider the community as one huge organic entity, with the spirit of God breathing reason, faith and grace into this huge mechanism, with each ministry being each essential organ, we do look alright dont we?

Well, here comes the sad truth. ARE YOU READY?

For many of us, we're immersed in an environment of competing influences. Ambition on one hand, relationship on another, we cant grasp God, much less his community!

Insecurities on one hand, inferiority on another, we are so stifled by our inadeuqacies that it makes more sense not to deal with it.

The influence of community is really as large as your concentration span. Outside sunday, outside tuesday(for those who even come), community is an idea, not a reality-as is the influence of it.

Oh perhaps its not true for you and i am mistaken, grossly. A negligent attempt on my part and an utter facetious remark void of any substance or basis whatsoever?? Well...ok list down your priorities in life, and get back to me again.

With that let me just share with the anonymous internet community my purpose in community. i am the leader of the teaching ministry. i am the lex luther to the superman, the joker to the batman, the villain to the hero. A pompous way to justify myself, definitely. But regardless, purpose is borne out of necessity. And at this point in time, there is a need to be the iconoclast ,an imperative for a vindicator. Without temptation, how can anyone know he is holy? Without the human, can anyone experience the divine?? Is it possible to know what you have got, without experiencing loss? Sometimes its the vigilante that exacts the real fair justice. I am that.

You will not know inspiration, until you know desperation. You will not know enlightenment, until you know disillusionment. You will not know conversion, until you know condemnation. Lose yourself to find yourself? When you know how to die you know how to live?

Its about time someone did something radical.